{"id":10616,"date":"2014-05-04T03:42:48","date_gmt":"2014-05-04T03:42:48","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/2014\/05\/04\/skinnydefenselessheroism-iamthefirechild-i-3\/"},"modified":"2014-05-04T03:42:48","modified_gmt":"2014-05-04T03:42:48","slug":"skinnydefenselessheroism-iamthefirechild-i-3","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/2014\/05\/04\/skinnydefenselessheroism-iamthefirechild-i-3\/","title":{"rendered":""},"content":{"rendered":"

skinnydefenselessheroism<\/a>:<\/p>\n

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iamthefirechild<\/a>:<\/p>\n

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“I want to figure it out for \/me\/,” Summer corrects. “Just me. I want to \u2014 to find a way to not need anyone else. To be okay with being alone in a crowd. I need to \u2026 there are things I did in high school that I did for really stupid reasons. Maybe if I figure out who I am, who I want to be, I won\u2019t make that kind of mistake again.” She gets up, picking up the ball, and manages to bowl a perfect strike, exchanging high fives with the other two girls.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

Stiles considers the words while Summer gets up to bowl, his mouth pressed into a thoughtful line. When she\u2019s done, it\u2019s his turn\u2014not at all a strike, again\u2014and then he plops back into his seat, asking like it\u2019s the most casual question in the world, \u201cDo you mean that to mean you want to be happy with yourself before you\u2019re happy with other people, or do you mean that to mean you don\u2019t want to have to deal with having friends any more?\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

“I mean … I want to stop feeling like I’m not worth anything unless I’m important to someone else.” Now she’s studying the palms of her hands like the secrets of the universe might be hidden in them. “I want to — ” She blows out a breath. “I don’t ever want to try to be something I’m not so someone will notice me again. And I need to know who I am so I know who not to be.”<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

skinnydefenselessheroism: iamthefirechild: “I want to figure it out for \/me\/,” Summer corrects. “Just me. I want to \u2014 to find a way to not need anyone else. To be okay with being alone in a crowd. I need to \u2026 there are things I did in high school that I did for really stupid reasons. … Continue reading <\/span> →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"ngg_post_thumbnail":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[10,867,21],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10616"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=10616"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10616\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=10616"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=10616"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=10616"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}