{"id":26108,"date":"2013-07-13T19:18:11","date_gmt":"2013-07-13T19:18:11","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/2013\/07\/13\/sometimes-i-wonder-if-theres-even-a-point-to-me\/"},"modified":"2013-07-13T19:18:11","modified_gmt":"2013-07-13T19:18:11","slug":"sometimes-i-wonder-if-theres-even-a-point-to-me","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/2013\/07\/13\/sometimes-i-wonder-if-theres-even-a-point-to-me\/","title":{"rendered":""},"content":{"rendered":"

sometimes I wonder if there’s even a point to me having this anymore. It’s been a year and I need to take my shoes off to count the number of people who’ve just abandoned me without a word, without even caring. oh look, here goes another. am I just not good enough? not interesting enough? I’m so sorry my muse is a flirt — oh wait no I’m not.<\/p>\n

I’m so tired of losing people. friends.<\/p>\n

I’m so tired of not being good enough in someone else’s eyes.<\/p>\n

I’m not usually one of those people who threatens to shut her blog down and delete at the slightest frustration, but I really do wonder right now if anyone would even notice.<\/p>\n

if the people I want to notice would care.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

sometimes I wonder if there’s even a point to me having this anymore. It’s been a year and I need to take my shoes off to count the number of people who’ve just abandoned me without a word, without even caring. oh look, here goes another. am I just not good enough? not interesting enough? … Continue reading <\/span> →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"ngg_post_thumbnail":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[33],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/26108"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=26108"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/26108\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=26108"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=26108"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=26108"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}