{"id":28361,"date":"2013-05-01T05:19:36","date_gmt":"2013-05-01T05:19:36","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/2013\/05\/01\/more-and-you-tell-me-i-dont-have-to-wait-my\/"},"modified":"2013-05-01T05:19:36","modified_gmt":"2013-05-01T05:19:36","slug":"more-and-you-tell-me-i-dont-have-to-wait-my","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/2013\/05\/01\/more-and-you-tell-me-i-dont-have-to-wait-my\/","title":{"rendered":""},"content":{"rendered":"

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and you tell me, i don’t have to wait my turn. but i do, i do, i come to you and say i’m ready now and you’re not ready. you don’t want me now. so when does this happen? i can’t always be ready for you, with this pulse of her beating in my brain, knowing what she wants to say and do. so i do have to wait my turn, patiently, trying to be just at the edge of sight so you don’t forget — but not say anything, god no, because that’s greedy and selfish and makes you feel bad. and when i do this, just putting my thoughts into words where anyone can see them, that’s passive-aggressive.<\/p>\n

so what am i supposed to do<\/p>\n

disappear until you want me, until it truly is my turn.<\/p>\n

not good enough. that’s what i hear when you say it. what you mean is you but what i hear is me.<\/p>\n

don’t make anyone feel bad. only yourself, and don’t let anyone see that. attention seeker. greedy. jealous. how dare you show that you are hurting.<\/p>\n

i want to be sorry but mostly i just want my turn.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

and you tell me, i don’t have to wait my turn. but i do, i do, i come to you and say i’m ready now and you’re not ready. you don’t want me now. so when does this happen? i can’t always be ready for you, with this pulse of her beating in my brain, … Continue reading <\/span> →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"ngg_post_thumbnail":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[109],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/28361"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=28361"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/28361\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=28361"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=28361"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=28361"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}