{"id":30003,"date":"2013-02-26T02:47:42","date_gmt":"2013-02-26T02:47:42","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/2013\/02\/26\/its-always-the-same-nightmare-doesnt-matter\/"},"modified":"2013-02-26T02:47:42","modified_gmt":"2013-02-26T02:47:42","slug":"its-always-the-same-nightmare-doesnt-matter","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/2013\/02\/26\/its-always-the-same-nightmare-doesnt-matter\/","title":{"rendered":""},"content":{"rendered":"<p>It&#8217;s always the same nightmare. Doesn&#8217;t matter where she is. There&#8217;s no cue, no trigger. But it&#8217;s always the same.<\/p>\n<p>She dreams their anger. Their disdain.<\/p>\n<p>It&#8217;s eerily simple, the dream. She sees their eyes. Their faces, yes, but mostly their eyes. Filled with dismissal.<\/p>\n<p>She doesn&#8217;t dream their turning away, but the sense of it is there. The sense of leaving, of absence, of abandonment. The knowledge that she isn&#8217;t enough. Isn&#8217;t wanted. Isn&#8217;t welcome.<\/p>\n<p>Sometimes what wakes her is crying out; other times she doesn&#8217;t know. She always wakes in tears, trembling with fear. She can&#8217;t move for long moments.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>It&#8217;s always the same nightmare. Doesn&#8217;t matter where she is. There&#8217;s no cue, no trigger. But it&#8217;s always the same. She dreams their anger. Their disdain. It&#8217;s eerily simple, the dream. She sees their eyes. Their faces, yes, but mostly their eyes. Filled with dismissal. She doesn&#8217;t dream their turning away, but the sense of &hellip; <a href=\"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/2013\/02\/26\/its-always-the-same-nightmare-doesnt-matter\/\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\"><\/span> <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"ngg_post_thumbnail":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[497,10,3533,3534,306],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/30003"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=30003"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/30003\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=30003"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=30003"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=30003"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}