{"id":30623,"date":"2013-01-31T02:58:56","date_gmt":"2013-01-31T02:58:56","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/2013\/01\/31\/gadgeteerphilanthropist-24\/"},"modified":"2013-01-31T02:58:56","modified_gmt":"2013-01-31T02:58:56","slug":"gadgeteerphilanthropist-24","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/2013\/01\/31\/gadgeteerphilanthropist-24\/","title":{"rendered":""},"content":{"rendered":"

gadgeteerphilanthropist<\/a>:<\/p>\n

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iamthefirechild<\/a>:<\/p>\n

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Summer hesitated a long time before answering. \u201cIt started to feel like I was lying to him. Like \u2026 if we didn\u2019t know each other, it was false. I\u2019m not saying this right.\u201d She looked down into her hands, desperately trying to find the right words. \u201cDid you know, he didn\u2019t know I was the other person until after he\u2019d threatened to kill himself and run away from me? When I first started talking to him, he didn\u2019t even know it was me, and he still \u2014 he,\u201d she shook her head, \u201cwanted to ignore my very existence. And I can\u2019t \u2014 I couldn\u2019t \u2014 I\u2019m not made that way. To pretend everything is alright. I wanted \u2014 I was selfish, I thought I could win him over and we could be a real trio.\u201d<\/div>\n<\/blockquote>\n

\u201cThat doesn\u2019t answer my question,\u201d he mumbled, words somewhat muffled against his hand.\u00a0 \u201cBy that point, he at least knew about you,\u201d how he hadn\u2019t at least run into her before that, Tony still wasn\u2019t sure, but he could ponder on that later, \u201cso I don\u2019t get why you didn\u2019t just wait until I said he was ready.\u201d\u00a0 Some part of him was still convinced, had she just waited longer, had he said something different, said something more, it would have turned out alright.\u00a0 Maybe not ideal, not perfect, but\u2026better.\u00a0 Better than the mess it had devolved into in the end.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

“I felt like a liar. I don’t know how else to put it. I felt like — I couldn’t come around the workshop or you, if he was there.” She wrung her fingers together. “Tony, the fact that he wouldn’t acknowledge me made me feel as though I was supposed to be a secret. From him!” She drew in a deep, shuddering breath. “Have you seen — I’m sure Jarvis has a recording of what happened. Tony, Dummy was never going to be ready. The way he spoke, when he didn’t have any idea at all that I was his … ‘competition’. He didn’t want it to work. And I,” she sighed, “was impatient. I felt left out and unwanted and like I was enabling you to cheat on him.”<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

gadgeteerphilanthropist: iamthefirechild: Summer hesitated a long time before answering. \u201cIt started to feel like I was lying to him. Like \u2026 if we didn\u2019t know each other, it was false. I\u2019m not saying this right.\u201d She looked down into her hands, desperately trying to find the right words. \u201cDid you know, he didn\u2019t know I … Continue reading <\/span> →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"ngg_post_thumbnail":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[10,199,3607],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/30623"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=30623"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/30623\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=30623"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=30623"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=30623"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}