{"id":31606,"date":"2012-12-14T06:57:44","date_gmt":"2012-12-14T06:57:44","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/2012\/12\/14\/awkward-conversation-dummystark\/"},"modified":"2012-12-14T06:57:44","modified_gmt":"2012-12-14T06:57:44","slug":"awkward-conversation-dummystark","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/2012\/12\/14\/awkward-conversation-dummystark\/","title":{"rendered":"Awkward Conversation | @dummystark"},"content":{"rendered":"

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\u201cDoesn\u2019t matter.\u201d He said softly, drawing his legs to his chest. \u201cI\u2019m not enough. I\u2019m going to try, but I don\u2019t know if I can make it. I love him. He\u2019s my everything, my only, but I\u2019m not that for him. And he doesn\u2019t know what that does to me. Not really.\u201d He explained.\u00a0<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

\u201cThe hell you say,\u201d she shot back, feeling anger start to flare. \u201cTony\u2019s not stupid, you know. You tried to kill yourself.<\/em> Did you not hear me? It will destroy him if you try again, far less succeed.\u201d \u2018How can you say you love him, if this is your reaction to his true nature?\u2019 she wanted to say, wanted to shout. \u2018Love doesn\u2019t demand change!\u2019 But she bit her tongue, hard. Even she was unsure if those thoughts came from long experience, long empathy, or simple ugly jealousy. Summer reached out to take Dummy\u2019s hand. \u201cThere are others who will miss you too, if you kill yourself. Happy, and Pepper, for starters.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

\u201cHe doesn\u2019t need me, he has someone else.\u201d He pulled away from her as he stood up. \u201cNo, they wouldn\u2019t. Happy doesn\u2019t know me, Pepper doesn\u2019t even visit me anymore. \u00a0No one would care if I were gone.\u201d he said, walking back to his room and locking himself back in his room.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

\u201cWhat the actual fuck was that?!\u201d Summer exploded. She bounced up off the couch, striding after Dummy. She jerked at the handle, and when it wouldn\u2019t move, she ground her teeth. \u201cDummy, if you don\u2019t open up this door right now, I am going to take it off the fucking hinges. You are not allowed to run away from this, you selfish little child. You promised to try! I\u2019m willing to love you both, even if you aren\u2019t, but not like this!\u201d she shouted, bracing one fist against the wall. \u201cOpen the damned door!\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

Dummy slowly opened the door, his gaze icy cold. \u201cYou\u2019re the other one. No. Stay away from me. I never want to see you again,\u201d he said, his voice dead even before he closed his door again.\u00a0<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

\u201cHow selfish can you possibly be, to place your own desires above those of the person you supposedly love, to the point of willingly, deliberately hurting them?!\u201d Summer abandoned the last edges of control. \u201cAre you really so selfish, so jealous, that you\u2019ll abandon the chance to be loved by more than one person, by anyone else, because this one person you want doesn\u2019t return your affections the way you want? You told Tony you would try this.<\/em> This is not trying. What kind of person does that make you, anyway?\u201d She hammered on the door. \u201cI am going to give you one more chance to act like the person Tony tells me he loves, before I melt this door right off its hinges.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

\u201cI told Tony I would try, and that means letting him have more than just me. Not trying to love more than him. Not trying to love who ever else he loves. He never told me this was what he wanted before I fell for him, before we got involved as deeply as we are now. He didn\u2019t bother to tell me until I asked if he\u2019d ever be married to me permanently,\u201d he screamed through the door. \u201cAnd now this is an issue because he never bothered to ask me. I thought it would just be he and I forever. Not he and I and someone else! I NEVER WANTED THIS! AND NOW IT\u2019S BEING FORCED ON ME!\u201d He was losing it completely now. \u201cAPPARENTLY HE TOLD YOU BUT HE NEVER CARED ENOUGH TO TALK TO ME ABOUT IT. I DON\u2019T WANT YOU NEAR ME. NOW LEAVE ME THE HELL ALONE.\u201d\u00a0<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

Summer set her lips firmly. “I suppose I should be glad you aren’t trying to kill me,” she hissed. She set one hand to the hinges and lit a white-hot fire in it. “If that’s how you want to play, he loved me first<\/em>. When you were still the robot he built in college, Tony loved me. And when you were recovering,” she laid venomous emphasis on the last word, “from your little game with the gun, it was me he called to hold him while he cried<\/em>. It was me he asked for advice after you asked him about marriage, and I<\/em> told him to marry you, because you loved each other. Because I love him. And I want his happiness.”<\/p>\n

She didn’t care if Dummy could hear her right now. The steel melted into sliding globs, and she moved the flame to the lower hinge. “I was willing to give him up for you, and it was he who decided he had a big enough heart for both of us. It was never<\/em> going to be just the two of you. Never.<\/em> You’d never have the pieces of his heart that belong to me, that belong to Pepper, that, gods help him, belonged to fucking Stane. You’re a selfish, childish — thing, that doesn’t deserve someone like Tony, because all you can think of is yourself!”<\/p>\n

Summer turned the flame even hotter, applying it to the tongue of the doorknob. With a wrench, she yanked the entire slab out of the wall and fixed Dummy with a glare, hair lifting in the hot air around her and hands full of flame. “He told me, asked me, trusted me because I asked. Because I listen. Because I love him for who he is and not some imagined idol on a pedestal. All of who he is,” she spat. She curled her hands into fists, and the flame vanished. “And one more thing: he didn’t talk to you about polyamory,” she took a cruel delight in saying the word aloud, “before because he didn’t know that’s what he wanted until you asked him about marriage. So you’ve only yourself to blame.”<\/p>\n

Summer offered Dummy a final sneer and stomped away, letting the energy of her rage carry her up to Tony’s bedroom, where she collapsed on the bed and cried harshly into one of the pillows.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

dummystark: iamthefirechild: dummystark: \u201cDoesn\u2019t matter.\u201d He said softly, drawing his legs to his chest. \u201cI\u2019m not enough. I\u2019m going to try, but I don\u2019t know if I can make it. I love him. He\u2019s my everything, my only, but I\u2019m not that for him. And he doesn\u2019t know what that does to me. Not really.\u201d … Continue reading Awkward Conversation | @dummystark<\/span> →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"ngg_post_thumbnail":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[10,3781,3691],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/31606"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=31606"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/31606\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=31606"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=31606"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=31606"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}