{"id":32732,"date":"2012-10-21T05:16:36","date_gmt":"2012-10-21T05:16:36","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/2012\/10\/21\/chasing-cars-theironaudi-27\/"},"modified":"2012-10-21T05:16:36","modified_gmt":"2012-10-21T05:16:36","slug":"chasing-cars-theironaudi-27","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/2012\/10\/21\/chasing-cars-theironaudi-27\/","title":{"rendered":"Chasing Cars | @theironaudi"},"content":{"rendered":"

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Tony sighed heavily. \u201cLook what you did, Stark,\u201d he whispered to himself, letting his forehead fall to the steering wheel. You push everyone away, this proves it. You hurt her and you hurt yourself.<\/em><\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

Tony\u2019s self-hatred slashed through her mind like a hail of darts, cutting and cold. It felt like she was shouting, but it couldn\u2019t have been much over a normal tone, just laden with intensity. \u201cStop it!\u201d Her arms were shaking. \u201cStop thinking that!\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

Tony sat upright at her tone, his mind blanking a little as he looked back at her. He opened his mouth to say something but he couldn\u2019t find the words he wanted to say. He shook his head, throwing a hand up to the bridge of his nose.<\/p>\n

\u201cI\u2026 I\u2019m no good with relationships in general, Summer. Friendships and otherwise. Cold hard truth. This is what I do every time, and every time, it happens sooner and sooner.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

\u201cI said, stop. Just stop. Get over here and listen to me, because if I move, I am going to fall over. You need to make yourself clear to me, because what is coming out of your mouth is telling me two things and what is coming out of your heart is telling me yet a third and I cannot figure out what the hell you even want right now.\u201d It\u2019s the oddly colourless, flat, queer tone she got whenever input was just overwhelming and release would knock something largish flat. She didn\u2019t look around, or up.<\/p>\n

\u201cI can\u2019t even look at you right now because your fucking mouth is entirely too distracting. But understand this, understand it right now,\u201d and she did look up, catching his eyes, \u201cyou don\u2019t get to choose for me.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

Stark got out of the car, shuffled back to her, and wondered how he could stand. He felt almost numb, overexposed to that point like a nerve rubbed raw. He wasn\u2019t used to so much emotion pulling him this way and that, he was used to machinelike control. He listened though.<\/p>\n

He blinked rapidly a few times before speaking. \u201cI\u2026\u201d he swallowed, working to compose himself to help the conversation and himself. \u201cTo make myself clear I do, at the very least<\/em>, want to see more of you. A date or two. And\u2026 yeah, that was selfish of me to do\u2014to think I could decide for you. And\u2026 my mouth is?\u201d He couldn\u2019t help but ask.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

Summer’s pupils were huge from more than the darkness of the night. Light glittered off the tearstreaks on her face. “I want to kiss you so badly right now,” she whispered, feeling utterly caught in his gaze. “Say it again. Why you want \/me\/. Say it again and I’ll start believing you.”<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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