{"id":33118,"date":"2012-10-10T07:36:20","date_gmt":"2012-10-10T07:36:20","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/2012\/10\/10\/adevalokidottir-iamthefirechild\/"},"modified":"2012-10-10T07:36:20","modified_gmt":"2012-10-10T07:36:20","slug":"adevalokidottir-iamthefirechild","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.firechildren.net\/lightfire\/iamthefirechild\/2012\/10\/10\/adevalokidottir-iamthefirechild\/","title":{"rendered":""},"content":{"rendered":"

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<\/a>adevalokidottir<\/a><\/strong> replied to your post<\/a><\/strong>: \u201cYou know, it\u2019s nights like this I wish I\u2019d\u2026<\/a><\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n

\u201cWhat are you blabbing about?\u201d Marie asked as she looked down at her older sister from her spot on the roof.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n

\u201cI met a demon. With Tony\u2019s face. He offered me beauty and control \u2026 \u201c<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

\u201cNow why would you want something so immature as that?\u201d Marie asked jumping down from the roof, \u201dYou look fine and you don\u2019t need control.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

\u201cIt would be nice to be able to keep you out of my head. It would be nice not to look in the mirror and doubt myself.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

\u201cEveryone doubts themselves, hell I am sure my father doubts him self ever second, but he doesn\u2019t let it take him over he grows. Youu need to get drunk hun.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

\u201cI\u2019ll just fall asleep, and believe me, that\u2019s not where I want to be right now. I\u2019m tired of hearing all of you, do you understand? I\u2019m tired of listening to feelings not my own. I don\u2019t even know what my own are anymore.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

\u201cThe train jesus stop whining. I have to hear a twisted version of myself whispering sadistic shit about dragging my soul into the darkness everyday of my life I just block it out.\u201d Putting her face in her palm, Marie sighed.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

\u201cAh. Yes. You would think it\u2019s so simple, wouldn\u2019t you? Suck it up, Summer, your life isn\u2019t bad. Just block it out, stop whining.\u201d She called a little fire into her hand, dancing it over her knuckles like a magician with a coin. \u201cSoooo easy, just ignore, just slide away, let the shadows overwhelm you; nobody cares, after all, what becomes of you. What do you need with a soul? You\u2019re a killer, you\u2019ve always been a killer. You\u2019ll never be anything but a killer.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

Laughing Marie held out her hand, as a ball of darkness appeared in her hand,\u201d You don\u2019t know me Summer, I kill because I have to. Your nothing more than a spoiled little brat, complaining because she has responsibilities.\u201d Closing her hand she glared at the other woman,\u201d So I rather be a killer than a brat.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

\u201cI\u2019ve taken the cats to a boarding kennel. They\u2019re paid for two weeks. Keep the apartment.\u201d She didn\u2019t look at her ersatz sister. \u201cI don\u2019t know you. But I know what you feel. I won\u2019t stay where I\u2019m not wanted.\u201d<\/p>\n

Stepping away from the railing, she finally looked back, face lit from beneath by the little fireball. \u201cYou came to help me, and for that I thank you. But, this, now? Keep your anger, your pity, your frustration.\u201d Turning on her heel, she walked away.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

\u201d Stop running away, if I pissed you off then hit me or something, I promise it will make you feel better,\u201d Marie said with clenched fist.\u00a0Don\u2019t leave Summer, you may piss me off but you were my first sister, I already lost Angela I can\u2019t keep losing people close to me, She thought as she looked at the other woman with a sad expression.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

She didn\u2019t turn around; her voice is quiet, flat. \u201cAlways violence. Always cruelty. Always hurting and pain, and all you can say is \u2018just block it out.\u2019 You wonder why I would have sold my soul for more control, and drive me to the edge of what control I have. You lash and lash and lash, and wonder why I \u2018run away.\u2019 You are so very young, and I am weary of fighting you.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

\u201cIf thats what you think Summer, some people are not able to just block it out. I just you are stronger than this, you don\u2019t need some deal with a demon to show that.\u201d With a sigh Marie lit a cigarette and sat on the ground, leaning against the wall,\u201d You save a lot of people by taking their pain away, yea you have to deal with it, but it is worth it in the end.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

“It’s a different kind of strength, Marie. I need space. I need to not constantly be dealing with your father, and with your expectations of me. Of what I should be.”<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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