I don’t even know why I’m sitting here hitting refresh, like somehow suddenly I’m going to be an important person to these kids that are important to me.
I’m not the one who gets the alerts send round when she’s feeling low, I don’t get the messages of love. I can count on one hand the people who will care.
I’m the one who sends the messages, even to people I don’t know. I’m the one with the listening ear, who cares regardless and spills out everything she knows to help someone else.
just once it would be nice to be the one everyone is worried about. just once it would be nice to be the center of attention and not because people hate me. more than two people, more than three people wanting me around, looking for me, eager for me to be online,