It was bad enough at Outsidecon that Michael almost hit someone, and he’s far better at restraining his temper than I am. I don’t even get it. It’s like, at my age, you should know to take no for an answer without me having to be a bitch about it.Oh, jeez… Yeah, there’s no reason to get pushy about it, especially as an adult. I don’t get why people act that way about alcohol. They say, “Oh, it’s not as big a deal as people say it is,” and then try to push it on you. They wouldn’t act like that if you turned down a soda, so why do it with alcohol?
Actually, I take it back. I do kind of get it. It’s about … the people who do it the most often, to me, are the people it has the most effect on, personality-wise. The people for whom being drunk truly does mean a change. And for them, they are certain, especially /when/ drunk, that this is a thing that’s true for everyone, and that everyone needs it.
It’s … well, it’s exactly like any other thing people do that they think is fun. Going on a roller-coaster, f’r’ex. “I love it, of course you will love it.” They find drinking fun, they find the changes that are wrought in them fun or at least relaxing, and they can’t imagine it would be different for anyone else.
Most of the time, I find that people will take me at my word when I say, “I can have just as much fun sober as you do drunk. There was this one time in college I let a lot of drunken frat boys dangle me off a balcony while I was sober.” But it’s the story that does it, not the first sentence — the story provides the proof.
The ones who won’t take me at my word get to experience what it’s like when I do an abrupt attitude change, and I’ve been told it’s scarey when I do it. When little cute Panya goes from laughing and smiling and raping herself on everyone to a voice an octave lower with almost no emotion and a killing glare …