liefullyloki:

I just… I have to say this.

For everyone who has been dealing with two or more week of depression, people who have suicidal thoughts, people who self-harm, people who have eating disorders, just if you have any kind of pain or problem you struggle with constantly (even migraines, okay?), please read this… 

For all of you who suffer and hurt in some way or form, I highly recommend you seek professional help if you have not already. Please do not read this in a ‘I’m frowning at you’ kind of way. I care about you all in my own weird way and I want to see you happy. So when I tell you to seek professional help, it is because that is what I did for my own problems and my only regret is not doing it sooner. 

It makes me sad to see so many of you lovelies in the community that accepted me and my characters with wide open arms so warmly are suffering. You are all so great, you’re all wonderful, beautiful creatures, and I think none of you deserve sadness in your lives. But I am not telling you to speak to a doctor because of how it makes me feel, I am telling you to do it for yourself. 

You should not have to suffer, all right?

Now I will tell you about myself, and I am posting this on Liefully’s blog where over a thousand eyes can read it. (Oh my gods, why you all are here, I don’t know what I do to keep so many of you, but thank you…) I have had depression since high school at least, so that would be about probably seven or more years of depression that I just lived with it. There is the chance I had depression in middle school. But I know I had it in high school because I read about mental health as I found the topics interesting and noticed that clinical depression’s symptoms described me really well.

I never spoke to any doctors and yet I had thoughts of suicide as well. The thoughts of suicide were not constant like the depression I lived with, though. I could go a few months without thinking of some way to kill myself if ever I decided to do it. But then this year, feeling the depression and having so many thoughts of suicide got to where I really wanted it all to end. I wanted to stop feeling sad but suicide is not the answer. 

So I spoke to a doctor about it. I admit, it was really difficult for me to tell my doctor I had depression for a long time and thoughts of suicide. I was scared of what she might do or say. I had a ton of horrible scenarios playing in my head of what would come of telling my doctor this information because I am a worst-case-scenario type of person. 

But guess what? 

A doctor is there to help you. And that is exactly what my doctor did when I told her these things. She helped me. She recommended me to a therapist to speak to and my therapist has been great with me. I was not given loads of prescription drugs. I was not sent to a mental hospital. I was not in any way shunned. The doctor’s there to help, not treat you like shit. But the doctor cannot help you if you never say anything. I guess just think about the phrase “A closed mouth never gets fed.” 

For those of you who have a hard time speaking to doctors, like you get nervous or intimidated, or you’re like me and just really forgetful (lol), I recommend writing what you want to say down on a piece of paper. That way your thoughts are clear and you’re better prepared to speak to your doctor. 

And if you’re already seeking help, my advise to you is to be as open as possible with your doctor(s). A doctor cannot help you if you never speak to them. Doctors are not mind readers, so do not expect them to be. The information you tell them is confidential, they’re not going to go find your parents, your family, your friends, whatever, and tell them what you told your doctor. My therapist has met my mom and has not told her anything we talked about. Okay? Have faith and trust in your doctors. Be as open with them as possible so they can help you. 

And lastly, feel free to come talk to me. I don’t have any “triggers” that I know of. So you can come talk to me and not worry about me start to have problems of my own from having a conversation with you. I have a Skype to talk to roleplayers. So send me a message if you want it to talk to me about something that bothers you. I would prefer it if you talked to me than hurt yourself. Okay? 

Okay. So…

I love every one of you, yes all of you. 

I think you should not have to suffer. 

So talk to a doctor if you haven’t already. 

Doctors are there to help. Shhhh, don’t be scared. <3

All the hugs to you. 

You’re all beautiful creatures, whether you think you are or not. 

liefullyloki:

I just… I have to say this.

For everyone who has been dealing with two or more week of depression, people who have suicidal thoughts, people who self-harm, people who have eating disorders, just if you have any kind of pain or problem you struggle with constantly (even migraines, okay?), please read this… 

For all of you who suffer and hurt in some way or form, I highly recommend you seek professional help if you have not already. Please do not read this in a ‘I’m frowning at you’ kind of way. I care about you all in my own weird way and I want to see you happy. So when I tell you to seek professional help, it is because that is what I did for my own problems and my only regret is not doing it sooner. 

It makes me sad to see so many of you lovelies in the community that accepted me and my characters with wide open arms so warmly are suffering. You are all so great, you’re all wonderful, beautiful creatures, and I think none of you deserve sadness in your lives. But I am not telling you to speak to a doctor because of how it makes me feel, I am telling you to do it for yourself. 

You should not have to suffer, all right?

Now I will tell you about myself, and I am posting this on Liefully’s blog where over a thousand eyes can read it. (Oh my gods, why you all are here, I don’t know what I do to keep so many of you, but thank you…) I have had depression since high school at least, so that would be about probably seven or more years of depression that I just lived with it. There is the chance I had depression in middle school. But I know I had it in high school because I read about mental health as I found the topics interesting and noticed that clinical depression’s symptoms described me really well.

I never spoke to any doctors and yet I had thoughts of suicide as well. The thoughts of suicide were not constant like the depression I lived with, though. I could go a few months without thinking of some way to kill myself if ever I decided to do it. But then this year, feeling the depression and having so many thoughts of suicide got to where I really wanted it all to end. I wanted to stop feeling sad but suicide is not the answer. 

So I spoke to a doctor about it. I admit, it was really difficult for me to tell my doctor I had depression for a long time and thoughts of suicide. I was scared of what she might do or say. I had a ton of horrible scenarios playing in my head of what would come of telling my doctor this information because I am a worst-case-scenario type of person. 

But guess what? 

A doctor is there to help you. And that is exactly what my doctor did when I told her these things. She helped me. She recommended me to a therapist to speak to and my therapist has been great with me. I was not given loads of prescription drugs. I was not sent to a mental hospital. I was not in any way shunned. The doctor’s there to help, not treat you like shit. But the doctor cannot help you if you never say anything. I guess just think about the phrase “A closed mouth never gets fed.” 

For those of you who have a hard time speaking to doctors, like you get nervous or intimidated, or you’re like me and just really forgetful (lol), I recommend writing what you want to say down on a piece of paper. That way your thoughts are clear and you’re better prepared to speak to your doctor. 

And if you’re already seeking help, my advise to you is to be as open as possible with your doctor(s). A doctor cannot help you if you never speak to them. Doctors are not mind readers, so do not expect them to be. The information you tell them is confidential, they’re not going to go find your parents, your family, your friends, whatever, and tell them what you told your doctor. My therapist has met my mom and has not told her anything we talked about. Okay? Have faith and trust in your doctors. Be as open with them as possible so they can help you. 

And lastly, feel free to come talk to me. I don’t have any “triggers” that I know of. So you can come talk to me and not worry about me start to have problems of my own from having a conversation with you. I have a Skype to talk to roleplayers. So send me a message if you want it to talk to me about something that bothers you. I would prefer it if you talked to me than hurt yourself. Okay? 

Okay. So…

I love every one of you, yes all of you. 

I think you should not have to suffer. 

So talk to a doctor if you haven’t already. 

Doctors are there to help. Shhhh, don’t be scared. <3

All the hugs to you. 

You’re all beautiful creatures, whether you think you are or not.