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*sighs and closes the netbook, rubbing at her forehead* You’ve never seen me get mad. And I hate lies and concealment more than anything.
‘I feel like I can’t reach you now.’ *parroted back at her verbatim, as he turns the simulation off and leans on the projection table* Because my sexual eagerness has a lot to do with that. *shrugs casually* Or maybe it does. This is me, after all. I’m kinda hard to reach. *and it’s stupid and he knows she didn’t mean it that way and it’s illogical, but it’s there*
*flinches* You are hard to reach. But that’s … I mean … *very low* It was like being wrapped in cotton. I couldn’t feel, I … I don’t even know how to explain it to you, and it’s just an excuse, anyway. You’re right. You came and saved me, and I haven’t even thanked you properly, or anything, and then I made you … sleep with me just to make me feel better, which is selfish *resisting tears now* and dammit, now I’m going to cry which is selfish too because you’ll think I’m trying to manipulate you and I swear Tony, I’m not, I just … I love you, and I know you don’t love me that way, I know it, but all I could think of when they had me was — *stops and just gulps, then whispers* What do you want me to say?