Sometimes. Even when I try to be off the drugs, I make an effort to see someone, someone trained, at least every couple months. Since … well, since a lot of things, but mostly in the two years since I last tried to kill myself, I go much more often.

I don’t often talk about it to people I consider my friends. I … warn them, sometimes, but to push the whole tangled mess of this onto them seems a bit unfair. It’s not an act of friendship, to my mind. But to listen to them, help them … yeah, it’s a bit screwy.