sometimes I wonder if there’s even a point to me having this anymore. It’s been a year and I need to take my shoes off to count the number of people who’ve just abandoned me without a word, without even caring. oh look, here goes another. am I just not good enough? not interesting enough? I’m so sorry my muse is a flirt — oh wait no I’m not.
I’m so tired of losing people. friends.
I’m so tired of not being good enough in someone else’s eyes.
I’m not usually one of those people who threatens to shut her blog down and delete at the slightest frustration, but I really do wonder right now if anyone would even notice.
if the people I want to notice would care.