Mostly what matters is that I think they do. I think I’m being selfish and jealous and petty and a whole host of other things. I’m almost certainly not being as much so as I feel I am — hello there crippling lack of self-esteem — but it’s still there at least a little.

The part where I’m frequently bored out of my mind and have literally nothing to do with my time /except/ sit at the computer and play games of various sorts and refresh tumblr has a lot to do with all this. I can guarantee I would feel a lot differently if my time was more productively occupied.