Maybe I want them to touch me. No, really. Not today. I actually have things to do today. Later, maybe. I don’t know.
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Oh hunny bun let’s drink! That fixes everything.
Oh /hell/ no. Not at this hour. Possibly not at all with you; you have an iron constitution, and I’m a light-weight.
Better as in wanting to be around people again, and what do you mean ungodly, its freakin 7:30!
No. Still feeling unsocial. Ungodly hour. Mornings /suck/.
Hey you, feeling any better yet?
Define ‘better’. Why am I even awake at this unholy hour?
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“What are you blabbing about?” Marie asked as she looked down at her older sister from her spot on the roof.
“I met a demon. With Tony’s face. He offered me beauty and control … “
“Now why would you want something so immature as that?” Marie asked jumping down from the roof, ”You look fine and you don’t need control.”
“It would be nice to be able to keep you out of my head. It would be nice not to look in the mirror and doubt myself.”
“Everyone doubts themselves, hell I am sure my father doubts him self ever second, but he doesn’t let it take him over he grows. Youu need to get drunk hun.”
“I’ll just fall asleep, and believe me, that’s not where I want to be right now. I’m tired of hearing all of you, do you understand? I’m tired of listening to feelings not my own. I don’t even know what my own are anymore.”
“The train jesus stop whining. I have to hear a twisted version of myself whispering sadistic shit about dragging my soul into the darkness everyday of my life I just block it out.” Putting her face in her palm, Marie sighed.
“Ah. Yes. You would think it’s so simple, wouldn’t you? Suck it up, Summer, your life isn’t bad. Just block it out, stop whining.” She called a little fire into her hand, dancing it over her knuckles like a magician with a coin. “Soooo easy, just ignore, just slide away, let the shadows overwhelm you; nobody cares, after all, what becomes of you. What do you need with a soul? You’re a killer, you’ve always been a killer. You’ll never be anything but a killer.”
Laughing Marie held out her hand, as a ball of darkness appeared in her hand,” You don’t know me Summer, I kill because I have to. Your nothing more than a spoiled little brat, complaining because she has responsibilities.” Closing her hand she glared at the other woman,” So I rather be a killer than a brat.”
“I’ve taken the cats to a boarding kennel. They’re paid for two weeks. Keep the apartment.” She didn’t look at her ersatz sister. “I don’t know you. But I know what you feel. I won’t stay where I’m not wanted.”
Stepping away from the railing, she finally looked back, face lit from beneath by the little fireball. “You came to help me, and for that I thank you. But, this, now? Keep your anger, your pity, your frustration.” Turning on her heel, she walked away.
” Stop running away, if I pissed you off then hit me or something, I promise it will make you feel better,” Marie said with clenched fist. Don’t leave Summer, you may piss me off but you were my first sister, I already lost Angela I can’t keep losing people close to me, She thought as she looked at the other woman with a sad expression.
She didn’t turn around; her voice is quiet, flat. “Always violence. Always cruelty. Always hurting and pain, and all you can say is ‘just block it out.’ You wonder why I would have sold my soul for more control, and drive me to the edge of what control I have. You lash and lash and lash, and wonder why I ‘run away.’ You are so very young, and I am weary of fighting you.”
“If thats what you think Summer, some people are not able to just block it out. I just you are stronger than this, you don’t need some deal with a demon to show that.” With a sigh Marie lit a cigarette and sat on the ground, leaning against the wall,” You save a lot of people by taking their pain away, yea you have to deal with it, but it is worth it in the end.”
“It’s a different kind of strength, Marie. I need space. I need to not constantly be dealing with your father, and with your expectations of me. Of what I should be.”
“What are you blabbing about?” Marie asked as she looked down at her older sister from her spot on the roof.
“I met a demon. With Tony’s face. He offered me beauty and control … “
“Now why would you want something so immature as that?” Marie asked jumping down from the roof, ”You look fine and you don’t need control.”
“It would be nice to be able to keep you out of my head. It would be nice not to look in the mirror and doubt myself.”
“Everyone doubts themselves, hell I am sure my father doubts him self ever second, but he doesn’t let it take him over he grows. Youu need to get drunk hun.”
“I’ll just fall asleep, and believe me, that’s not where I want to be right now. I’m tired of hearing all of you, do you understand? I’m tired of listening to feelings not my own. I don’t even know what my own are anymore.”
“The train jesus stop whining. I have to hear a twisted version of myself whispering sadistic shit about dragging my soul into the darkness everyday of my life I just block it out.” Putting her face in her palm, Marie sighed.
“Ah. Yes. You would think it’s so simple, wouldn’t you? Suck it up, Summer, your life isn’t bad. Just block it out, stop whining.” She called a little fire into her hand, dancing it over her knuckles like a magician with a coin. “Soooo easy, just ignore, just slide away, let the shadows overwhelm you; nobody cares, after all, what becomes of you. What do you need with a soul? You’re a killer, you’ve always been a killer. You’ll never be anything but a killer.”
Laughing Marie held out her hand, as a ball of darkness appeared in her hand,” You don’t know me Summer, I kill because I have to. Your nothing more than a spoiled little brat, complaining because she has responsibilities.” Closing her hand she glared at the other woman,” So I rather be a killer than a brat.”
“I’ve taken the cats to a boarding kennel. They’re paid for two weeks. Keep the apartment.” She didn’t look at her ersatz sister. “I don’t know you. But I know what you feel. I won’t stay where I’m not wanted.”
Stepping away from the railing, she finally looked back, face lit from beneath by the little fireball. “You came to help me, and for that I thank you. But, this, now? Keep your anger, your pity, your frustration.” Turning on her heel, she walked away.
“What are you blabbing about?” Marie asked as she looked down at her older sister from her spot on the roof.
“I met a demon. With Tony’s face. He offered me beauty and control … “
“Now why would you want something so immature as that?” Marie asked jumping down from the roof, ”You look fine and you don’t need control.”
“It would be nice to be able to keep you out of my head. It would be nice not to look in the mirror and doubt myself.”
“Everyone doubts themselves, hell I am sure my father doubts him self ever second, but he doesn’t let it take him over he grows. Youu need to get drunk hun.”
“I’ll just fall asleep, and believe me, that’s not where I want to be right now. I’m tired of hearing all of you, do you understand? I’m tired of listening to feelings not my own. I don’t even know what my own are anymore.”
“The train jesus stop whining. I have to hear a twisted version of myself whispering sadistic shit about dragging my soul into the darkness everyday of my life I just block it out.” Putting her face in her palm, Marie sighed.
“Ah. Yes. You would think it’s so simple, wouldn’t you? Suck it up, Summer, your life isn’t bad. Just block it out, stop whining.” She called a little fire into her hand, dancing it over her knuckles like a magician with a coin. “Soooo easy, just ignore, just slide away, let the shadows overwhelm you; nobody cares, after all, what becomes of you. What do you need with a soul? You’re a killer, you’ve always been a killer. You’ll never be anything but a killer.”
“What are you blabbing about?” Marie asked as she looked down at her older sister from her spot on the roof.
“I met a demon. With Tony’s face. He offered me beauty and control … “
“Now why would you want something so immature as that?” Marie asked jumping down from the roof, ”You look fine and you don’t need control.”
“It would be nice to be able to keep you out of my head. It would be nice not to look in the mirror and doubt myself.”
“Everyone doubts themselves, hell I am sure my father doubts him self ever second, but he doesn’t let it take him over he grows. Youu need to get drunk hun.”
“I’ll just fall asleep, and believe me, that’s not where I want to be right now. I’m tired of hearing all of you, do you understand? I’m tired of listening to feelings not my own. I don’t even know what my own are anymore.”
“What are you blabbing about?” Marie asked as she looked down at her older sister from her spot on the roof.
“I met a demon. With Tony’s face. He offered me beauty and control … “
“Now why would you want something so immature as that?” Marie asked jumping down from the roof, ”You look fine and you don’t need control.”
“It would be nice to be able to keep you out of my head. It would be nice not to look in the mirror and doubt myself.”
adevalokidottir replied to your post: “You know, it’s nights like this I wish I’d…
“What are you blabbing about?” Marie asked as she looked down at her older sister from her spot on the roof.
“I met a demon. With Tony’s face. He offered me beauty and control … “